Thursday, June 07, 2007

In a spin

Things have been a little off lately in my world. It’s been a real struggle to maintain the juggling act that is my life and I’ve been fumbling and even dropping a few balls over the last few weeks. The problem has been a combination of a whole lot of things, including a surge in business that’s keeping me up late at night and leaving me little free time, the stress of selling the house, and if I’m honest, a minor freak-out about competing. There’s a whole lot of other stuff going on as well, not the least of which is an attack of the winter SADs, but the cumulative result is I’ve been feeling like crap.

I knew there was a serious problem when I didn’t want to even go do my weight training. I mean, I never like getting up at 5:30am in the cold and the dark (I’m not actually crazy, ya know!), but the thought of heaving chunks of iron around for an hour always spurs me on. Not this week though.

So earlier this week I was all mopey and moody, and constantly blinking back tears. Training was hit-and-miss, food was completely off and I had all these thoughts swirling around in my brain, but couldn’t seem to put them into any sort of order where I could figure out what to do. All I felt like doing was staying in bed with the blankets over my head…..but that wasn’t going to resolve anything. Thank goodness for some sane and caring people in my life! A series of conversations yesterday made everything crystal clear for me.

First, I got an email from Sara and among other things, she said: “Are you still planning to compete in September? I think it might be all a bit much with everything you have going on. Don’t go giving yourself a mental breakdown or anything!” I swear, that girl must have psychic powers or something!

Then last night, Bike Boy arrived home with a surprise for me: a spanking new George Foreman Grill (you might remember that our old one met an untimely end when it danced off the washing machine during the spin cycle). He's been really concerned about me and was trying hard to make life easier in the food preparation department again. And then we had a chat about things, which resulted in me deciding to postpone the competition till next year.

When I originally made the decision to compete, I had no idea we were going to sell our house and build another. WAAAAY too much stress, let me tell you! If I’m going to prepare for a comp, I’ll need total focus, and that’s just not possible right now. I've been trying to spread myself too thin between family, clients and my own needs and, hey - IT'S NOT WORKING.

That left me with some choices to make about what I AM going to do, training-wise, for the rest of this year. I’m sick of driving for 20 minutes to get to and from the gym on cardio days, when I only spend 20 minutes doing intervals most of the time. Instead, I thought I might get me a spin bike and some DVDs and swap to some home workouts a couple of times a week – Bike Boy could use it too, if he asks nicely. I started surfing the net, looking at bikes, but I really had no idea what was a good brand or price, and it all got a little confusing. So I emailed LizN for some advice and a short time later she RANG me. As well as getting advice on spin bikes, we had a great chat and Liz’s input really cemented my decision to pull the pin on competing for now.

I’m also going to take a break from my trainer for a while – I figure now is a great time to play around with some fun workouts. I might even give that 300 workout that the other Liz wrote about a whirl. And maybe break out my Precision Nutrition kit and give it good go.

I feel as though a huge load has been lifted from my shoulders. Phew.

I’m off now to set some goals and make me a plan…..


Sienna said...

Sounds like you are going through a rough patch. Chin up. Remember that sometimes you have to put yourself first instead of everyone else! Competitions will still be there next year. Burning the candle at both ends will just wear you out my friend. By the way, it's good to know a superfit human like yourself has bad weeks too!

Kathryn said...

It's funny how when we work out the answer to things, it seems so simple. Hard to see when you're bogged down in the stress through. Sounds like you've made the right decision - you seem much more enthused.

Chris H said...

I think you have made a very good decision for yourself, take some of the stress out of your life... and start to enjoy yourself a bit more. Sellling and building a new home is a very stressful time on it's own!! I hope you find the perfect spin bike (I want my own too!) and just chill out mate.

liz said...

You had a light bulb moment!! Its great that you put other people's needs ahead of your own but sometimes you just need to take time for yourself. That was a bit of a load lifted so you have less to stress about :) NOw, are you going to attempt the floor wipers as part of your 300 reps?? or is that only for wackos?

Kek said...

Floor wipers - yeah, you go first, Liz!

BeepBeep said...

Hey, thanks for being Real! Anyone can make plans, but flexibility is another thing entirely. And way to go with changing it around and making it work for you.

Shauna said...

I started out reading this post wanting to jump through the screen to give you a hug but finished off thinking "AHHH, that Kekster. She's a legend." Hope you are doing okay mate xxox

ms_attitude said...

Glad you've had some great advice, I felt exactly the same about a week or so ago (maybe the full moon that's just been?!).
Working out at home is quite refreshing - and it really does help when you go back to the gym you actually look forward to it again. A change is as good as a holiday! Your body (and mind) will thankyou for it.
Hugs to you

Unknown said...

Glad you feel more sorted now Kerryn. Buying. selling and building are all huge things to do. It's good to spend a bit of time being kind to yourself!

Flea said...

Kerryn, you just described my current state I'm in and I hate decision time.
I was offered a good job with difficult hours, I would have had to cancel kids sport (I'm their taxi) just to earn money and would have had to arrange child cares etc. While doing this I try to study for my exams and training, and suddenly weigh 2kg heavier :-(
Tears are near and so is throwing things.
I'll come over for my visit more often, I liked your attitude of focussing, planning and doing it!
Good on ya!
(oh, I declined the job offer then and was annoyed that I felt I had too)

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