Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Passion

Chase down your passion like it's the last bus of the night. ~ Glade Byron Addams

I had a bit of a revelation the other day. There were some ideas lurking in the back of my mind, hiding in the shadows, but I couldn't seem to catch hold of them long enough to make anything of them. It was all centred around competing, and I had a slight sense of something missing, but couldn't put my finger on it.

I read Liz's post about her decision not to compete again, and Carolyn's, about her comp prep and how enthusiasm is eluding her this time around, and then discovered those slippery, murky thoughts were surfacing more and more.

On Monday, the thoughts solidified and I realised what was missing for me: passion. I'm looking forward to competing, I'm enjoying the process (in spite of the slo-o-ow progress), and I fully intend to get up there and have some fun with it. But it's not something I'm passionate about.

I didn't go into this with the plan to be a world champion - that was never going to happen, what with my physical problems, which prevent me from EVER displaying perfect symmetry. So what was I hoping to get out of it? Hmm ....a sense of achievement, the chance to prove something to myself, and putting in the hard yards to be the best I can be, not some judge's idea of physical perfection.

So, I shall once again strut my stuff on the figure stage - assuming that my body decides to get with the program and shift some of this blubber - but I'll be looking elsewhere for fulfilment. Back to sports-related goals for me, I think, and a shift in focus away from how I LOOK to what I can DO. I've always liked the form follows function philosophy anyway. I'm not saying I'll never compete again - I kind of like the idea of giving the Over 50s a go in a couple of years - but if I don't, I won't feel as though I have any unfinished business.

I said to Liz yesterday that I think perhaps I need to get my super-slick Subzero road bike OFF the rack on the garage wall and get my butt out on the road. I have some legitimate fears about riding on the main road here, but I'll see what I can do to get around that... So perhaps my next goal is already staring me in the face every time I get in and out of my car.

As for my true passion? That lies in just living a fit life, and even more so in helping other people achieve their goals. I'm looking at ways I can broaden my skills there, to be an even better coach for my clients. Lots to think about.

6 comments:

Ronnie said...

This post gets 2 THUMBS UP from me.

Cherub said...

"As for my true passion? That lies in just living a fit life, and even more so in helping other people achieve their goals. I'm looking at ways I can broaden my skills there, to be an even better coach for my clients. Lots to think about."

Almost word for word what I figured (again!)for myself on Friday.

Kristy said...

Great post Kek...

I keep thinking about my passions and why I can't get the passion back for running, but I am having so much riding everywhere at the moment that I am following that passion...

MTB Girl said...

Go Kek - get out on that beautiful bike!

Can you aim for Amy's Ride or something similar? Join Liz and I in the Brissie 100km ride?

I'm with you on functional fitness.

Kek said...

Amy's Ride might be a goer. It'll depend what events they offer.

There's also a great ride near here in September - the Degani Kinglake ride. Maybe I can do that one next year ...it has LOTS of hills, so not for beginners.

Trixie said...

I've decided as of late that I'm board with the gym/bodybuilding lifestyle. I'm 19% body fat right now,and just a regular woman. So,I don't feel I need to drop and more weight. I've decided I need to enjoy fitness,so I've taken up Crossfit. I've already had my first lesson. Certainly is not for the faint of heart. Anyhow,trying to find my passion and enjoy myself in the process.

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